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Not Me Anymore

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SarcasticCupcake5

Published: Feb 4, 2015

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empty shelled human
nothing is the same
likes and dislikes disappeared
characteristics now are foreign entities
originality, it is like sin
dissipates off my skin
like mist my personality dissolves
in the afternoon sun
to see the hollow person that is me

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bored missing personality poem empty

The things that made me, me no longer seem to be here. They weren't replaced, they just vanished. I'm not me anymore. There's nothing about me. Just a boring, hollow shell that was once a human girl.

Each person is supposed to have their own unique personality. Where is mine? What happened to it? Its like I don't like anything, I don't do anything, I'm without opinions or hobbies. I'm not even me at all.

Ugggg. I need a positivity boost.

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Kazudoom

Feb 10, 2015

Personalities are just unique mixtures of the same set of character features.

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